"Look inside your heart. and learn to push that switch. that switch that refuses to stay where you want it to. that switch that gives you that feeling like you want to scream out loud and just do anything you can to hold it there. Find it within yourself to do it, and when you can; you've let go."

I don't want to tell you about it because i don't even know how to. its just hard to deal with the fact that your not going to be there everytime i pick up the phone to msg u, or everytime i feel like i just want to lie in bed and talk, or everytime i turn around and your there talking gibberish. its hard for me to say it, but i really do miss the times when we could do that knowing that nobody else's opinions would matter.

but as much as it sucks, you being happy means alot more to me than all those. so go. enjoy yourself. but come back to me when its all over, okay?

-lu