.click.

we stop pedestrains in their tracks and hold bystanders up while we pose for pictures.

...and the fact that I feel so comfortable walking beside you makes it all the more precious.

-lu

.nose.

...okay so i can't do cheesy to save my own life. but i really hope you smile when u see this

if you only knew how much i like u,

u'd realized tt head over feet may have been your song,

but mine doesn't have to have one.

coz our song is not made up of keys and notes,

but kisses and holds.

-lu

Woking Street

..some of the residents made a ladder and swing out of rope, plank and a strong tree branch.

-lu

.Christmas '07.

Merry Christmas, all!

-lu

.-muck-.

...so today i had to go out for abit after church to do some chores for the mum. got home an hour later to find this.

i've got the laziest girlfriend in the world.

-lu

.heroes.

..in the world of sin-lee..normal happenings are a rarity =)

-lu

we break all cliches in life

-lu

.you+me.

..so i dug through my email records looking for something embarrassing like this..=)

"...i really dont know what kinda friends we can be...because whenever we go out, even though i know we are friends and im over that JC period thing, i still feel you are someone important to me. i still think about you from time to time..but anyway, i know it's not your fault and there's nothing you can do. im just overly emotional. haha. puke. sorry for everything lionel. beep me if you wanna. no worries if u dun wanna. i can be quite scary sometimes..better run away while you can. but i hope not.

love always,
aims"

(November 30, 2005 10:01:46 PM)

~

i think this was the moment we both started to grow up,

and i stopped looking at you as that girl who had a huge crush

and i'm glad we had that quarrel;

whatever we both claim (like: its not my fault heh);

coz that was the point when i turned around

and saw you as the girl who took everything i had,

and everything i didn't

and crumpled them into a ball of love

and never once let it leave her side,

always in her pocket.

是妳在我身边,让我想作更好一點

-lu

..you don't know it coz i don't say it out. but i miss u everytime we're apart. but i'm too proud to tell you, and i wish sometimes you could know how much i want to be right beside u when we're not together.

hush.

ok. dinner yesterday was REALLY good. expensive, but i like. =)

1 Rochester.

Aim's creation.

What a weird post.

-lu

so yesterday was at Dempsey. Nice place with lovely decor, and drinks were good + they kept refilling the bowl of nonsense



and what is Wednesday night without Zouk? even though we only went there for like what..2 hours? i do like velvet. =)

lu. tea. aims.

the rest is still unwritten. =)

**disclaimer: these pictures were stolen. but i don't care. i'm weevil**

-lu

.so close.

to you.

-lu

first time or a billionth, it still is so gosh darn sweet.

-lu

.nose.

do u think fairytales exist?

come closer. closer. =)

...lu is very in need to BREATHE. party party party party.

-lu

.wrong/nice.

you either know, or you don't. =)

-lu

.laughter. joy. love. friends. ever.

"H1 H1 H2A H3"

Happy enough. Stupid law subject always make my transcript records look so ugly. but hey, no complaints.

anyway, the past 2 days: an eclectic summary

oh oops. everything except becks. haha. gosh. i duno where i would be without the 5 of u..

anyway, time to start packing. gotta be ready by 5am to catch the sunrise with snobby.

oh, and the video to mark our accomplishments as street dancers. =)

heh. Farewell for now, Melbourne. Will see u after the new year.

-lu

.tribute.

"some things that happen, only certain people know and that's all that needs to be known. Because all the good memories stay & will forever be carved...and like good wine, when opened years later, can only taste better."

...you know how sometimes you set your sights so firm on something that is going to happen that you just hope to blitz through everything in between? well even though i can't wait to step off that plane bound for home tomorrow, i'm sure as hell gona miss

the 10:05pm chicken dance in the streets with the 2 Js

the 1am karaoke

the private function with probably 3 of the loveliest people who have graced my life

the dinner and possum walks

the lying on the couch in the dark, legs on top of one another, talking about things that matter and don't with the snob (i mean it in an affectionate way)

the shoppingS (oh gosh how could i forget the shopping)

the brisk walking to and from safeway at 11.40pm just so that we could get fruits+drinks to accompany devil wears prada

the late night walks to everyone's houses and just talking and talking

the dancing, toasts, laughter, tears and screams from dinners and lunches at crazy times

...and that all happened in like less than a week. i don't know what i did to deserve all that love, but i know the memories have been etched. photos will serve to reinforce them, but the reminiscing will never stop.

time to go home. to say goodbye to 1st year of Uni and 2007 in Melbourne. but before that, time to pack, meet aileen, den ginny for lunch & the girls (AND harry!) for dinner. lu suddenly wishes 6th of December would slow down so he can take a breath.

but hey, Singapore's home. and it will never change. which explains why i'm excited. =)

and most of all, i'm coming home to you.

-lu

“可以不要对我这么好吗? 我怕我会喜欢上你”

aiyoo so sweet...how to say no. i mean, yes. =(

-lu

.dec dec dec.

so shoppingyesterday with the krunks was crazy. i said i wasn;t going to buy anything but a pair of shades, but instead i not only ended up with 2 pairs, i bought

2 t-shirts
1 bag
1 pair of flip-flops
wine glasses
1 pair of leather sandals (that i still insist i *heart* so much)

total damage: A$380. okay, time to go home and grovel to mummy when she sees the bill. hoo-ah.

and oh. mgah. lu is getting nervous.

Start of December is gna be a helluva crazy-monkey month 7th results come out party (hopefully happily) 8th party 9th watch 400m free then hopefully party (happily again) and 10th is catch up time with friends friends friends

And Europe is beckoning too. =)

oh gosh. Please, Santa. I've been a (relatively) good boy this year and i just want the presents i've wished for.

-lu

Its only been 24 hours. but its starting to feel much better.

Today I nearly broke down in tears. Not coz of you. But coz of all that love from everyone.

Thank you. thank you so much, guys. I guess yesterday i needed so much from all of you that I didn't even think about what you all had to do. But you all came. just for me. Thank you so much.

And yes. I'm looking forward to Private Function I on Sunday. Just us. =)

-lu

.xoop.

Hey Beck/Bern/Rach/Elf/Aims/the people from Melb (you know who you all are)..thank you so much for being there the past few days.

"Yea, I may have lost somebody. But I found out I have really.good.friends."

I don't believe I cannot figure this out.

-lu

"Look inside your heart. and learn to push that switch. that switch that refuses to stay where you want it to. that switch that gives you that feeling like you want to scream out loud and just do anything you can to hold it there. Find it within yourself to do it, and when you can; you've let go."

I don't want to tell you about it because i don't even know how to. its just hard to deal with the fact that your not going to be there everytime i pick up the phone to msg u, or everytime i feel like i just want to lie in bed and talk, or everytime i turn around and your there talking gibberish. its hard for me to say it, but i really do miss the times when we could do that knowing that nobody else's opinions would matter.

but as much as it sucks, you being happy means alot more to me than all those. so go. enjoy yourself. but come back to me when its all over, okay?

-lu

.no, i'm not in love.

its funny how u realise that as much as one scoffs at others, you don't know how to deal with a certain situation when it actually hits u.

yea. i don't know how to deal with this. its warped. like there's something uneasy about the whole thing but i don't know what and i don't know how to deal with it.

maybe its coz i don't like sharing things that mean alot to me; or tt i don't like changes. or maybe its His way of telling me not to take people for granted. but either way its not easy. and i don't like dealing with emo stuff.

i guess e one thing i need to learn is to freaking let go. its really not that hard, lu. you just have to slowly open your hand.

i guess sometimes as much as i hate letting people get too close, i hate looking at the footprints they leave behind when their gone too.

Ah. Whatever. I don't know anything anymore.

-lu

nope. after 21 years, i still won't beg for help.

and the fact that you couldn't see that makes it all the more disappointing. but i don't want to argue with you. if you think you're right, then you're right. I won't ask for your help again.

.doorstep.

"ready on the left, ready on the right, locked and loaded"

So this is it. last one for the year. its so fast how the year just flies by like that, huh? and knowing that your at home waiting for me makes it so much sweeter. =)

"we'll spend evenings sitting next to each other;
and just talk about anything we want to.
and even though we both have millions of people in our lives,
i want to feel like i'm the only one who matters to you in that hour or two."

took it right out of my mouth, dear girl.

i'm coming home to you. =)

-lu

.retard.

Well I guess we’re here again.

Same old street, same old place.

Maybe this once I’m meant to walk down alone; never having the chance to tell you how much it meant when you said it brought back everything. Or ask you what you meant when you said I should know why it was so hard for you.

Coz I don’t understand. But I don’t want to ask because it’ll just make me tired. Of questioning the ifs and the maybes. And I don’t want to regret doing anything.

I’ll walk down the path myself this time, princess. And I’ll smile for your happiness, and knowing that everytime I smell you and turn around,

That maybe this time it’ll be you.

i miss having my sentences completed,
and having you all to laugh with me when i didn't make sense.
and i miss not having a care in the world;
except tt heart-rate set every wed evening.

coz i duno wad to do now,
and i duno why i feel like this.
but can i please have it all back,
coz i dun want anything else anymore.

i dun want to learn how to fly. anymore.

-lu

thanks you've been fuel for thought

now i'm more lonely than before

but that's okay

i've just already made

another stupid love song.

..i just already made another stupid love song. This blog is so not me, but so me at the same time. I don't have an alter-ego, and neither is lionellee.blogspot a facade. its just..sometimes i don't want everyone to know how i feel about stuff, i guess.

-lu

i don't know why its like this.
but its really tiring sometimes.

i've always wanted to have like my emo side removed. since young.
like as if its an organ i could just cut away.
then maybe i'd stop thinking, or wishing, or pitying, and thinking somemore.

what the hell.

i don't want to talk about it.

.numero uno.

oOoh this is my first post here. Think i'll end up using it for my media stuff later this year..for now i'll just post stuff i wanna keep secret lah. stay tuned!

p.s. - if ur reading this, how did you find it?! haha. i told no one.

-lu