.flashback.

i was taking a break from obligations readings and decided to go to (heh) sleeping_shadow, just to see if i found anything interesting. turns out so many things made me smile, i decided to do a quick collage of everything that caught my eye. =)

so let's see..we'll start from..October 2006, darling?

08-Sep-06 (6.49pm)
"...it's really great, what i felt, hearing you tell me what you did this morning. but it also saddens me because it proved my point that we will never be. it was always one characteristic short, 10minutes too late, 5 minutes too early, an entire ocean away...."

10-Sep-06 (9.08am)
"...and every little thing you say means so much more,
simply because it's you.

...you just keep coming back to mind.

and for me, you too."

11-Sep-06 (11:54am)
"...and i try to find a piece of you in every guy i meet. "

5 Oct 2006 (3.57pm)
"This chair!! THIS chair!!"

22 Nov 2006 (3.58pm)
"I'm not talking to someone right now.
And I wish like hell we're not at it again.

Sometimes I don't know if it's good or bad; or whether I'll always have that part of you with me.
And it scares the hell out of me because then we will have to be cold for as long as I have to be"

26 Nov 2006 (8.36pm)
"I knew the anonymous tag was you.

I don't know what else to say but I'm glad we talked last night."

20 Dec 2006 (6.58pm)
"Well, over two drinks each, we had the best in-person conversation in ages. It was just very honest. Most of you know Lionel-Aimee-Friendship is so on-off that even if we have known each other for four years, we might as well have only met last year. Much of the conversation helped me understand some things, helped me realize other things, and it helped me know you better.

As a person, you are more than alright, Mister Lee. I thought about a lot of things tonight. Of old times, of times forgotten, of times ahead. After all our ups and downs, I think the fact that we're better friends now than ever means something. I know in some way you'll always be there for me, and I'll be there for you the best way I can."

20 Dec 2006 (8.30pm)
"When I hug some of the people in my life, it comes from the heart. It will be tight, firm and it will feel like I haven’t seen them for ages or will not be seeing them for a long time. It might feel like the last hug I believe I could ever give you.

When it comes to you, most times, this is true – especially the part about the last hug. When I hug you, I mean it. And maybe, you felt it."

20 Feb 07 (1.02am)
"The sound of gushing water, the blue of the swimming pool, the tightness in your chest...

I felt peaceful, and I felt close to you. "

05 Apr 08 (10:01pm) - aglio-olio.blogspot.com
...i guess reading all that made me realise you could easily've been someone else's. And i guess it scared me more than i realised. i got so many things i still wanna tell you, wanna tok with you about, wanna do with you, and wanna share with you. and i guess i'm afraid if you go, i'll never get to do them. maybe ever. -muck-

i miss you.

-lu